On Monday I headed out to the bush for my usual long run. Arriving at my start point, a campground at the local national park, just on sunrise. I was surprised to see just one camper set up, being a long weekend I had expected a full house, but I didn’t pay it much thought being more focused on warming up and heading off before it got too hot.
Being my long run I hadn’t set myself an easy task. I am currently training to take part in The NorthFace 50km event in the Blue Mountains, so typically my long runs involve elevation and plenty of it. As well as about 800m of elevation (both down and then back up again) and 2/3 of the run being on awesome single track, what I didn’t know at the time, was that I was running on a sprained ankle.
I love running in this particular forest. It is where I first started trail running. I kind of feel like I’ve grown with the forest a little. Each time I come back there are changes, creeks running that haven’t previously, huge trees across the path, fungi on particular steps.
There are also familiar markers, the creek crossing before the steep ascent, the gnarled root at the top of a flight of stairs, the strangler fig that always catches the light in the most beautiful way, no matter what time of day. I have had beautiful runs here, I have had amazingly fast runs and I’ve also had runs where I have broken down and sobbed with only the trees to hear me. It is a space that is very dear to me.
Monday’s run was what I think of as a good solid run. I wasn’t breaking any speed records but I was going nice and steady. I was doing a route I have done before but had changed it to first descend into the valley and then after some “undulations”, as my coach calls them, I would ascend back to the top of the mountain. This is because in TNF50 the second half of the race is all pretty much ascent.
About three quarters in it got tough, the ankle which I had, unbeknownst to me, sprained 5 days earlier began to hurt. I was also hitting the steepest part of my ascent and my heart rate was meaning I was hiking more than running (I am currently doing low heart rate training, something I will no doubt discuss in the future). Whenever I have to hike for prolonged periods head games start, so by the time I got to the top of the mountain it was hard both physically and mentally. I was feeling pretty down on myself as I ran into the clearing signalling the campground where I had started.
I looked up to see my truck and saw that the lone camper had woken and was watching me as I ran across the grass. I forced a smile and gave a hello. He shook his head, smiling and exclaimed “well isn’t that something?!?”. I laughed, a little wary, not sure what he meant and wandered over to the truck starting my warm down as he asked “so did you run all the way to the bottom and back up again?” I answered yes, but bit my tongue before the “slowly” bit came out, knowing he didn’t need or want to know. “Wow….. You must do this a lot then?” For some reason that question floored me for a moment. I answered yes, but in my mind he had struck a chord. He reiterated “that really is something” and we bantered some more about our reasons for being in the bush and the trails I’d just been on as I warmed down, then I said goodbye as I left, done for the day.
I think I forget sometimes that a lot of people don’t do this kind of stuff. Heading out into the bush, alone, for a 3hr run is astonishing to some people. I am surrounded by people who either do that sort of thing every week or who support me so unabashedly that it normalises it. Those words from that random dude, taken aback by this woman charging out of the bush after running down the mountain and then back up again made me feel like maybe I’m doing ok. I’m no Anna Frost, Rory Bosio or Deb Nicholl but I’m out there doing it and I whole heartedly love it.
As for the sprained ankle? Well, its given me some perspective as well and made me realise just what it is about running. It’s got nothing to do with how fast I go..